9th August 2018
It almost sounds cliché, but if there’s anything I’ve learnt from my time as a Trainee Pastor thus far, it’s that one must know his/her God. It sounds simple on the surface, but I mean it, this has been the greatest lesson – learning to know my God.
Before starting as a Trainee Pastor at King’s, I had worked in investment banking for three years. And though I was a follower of the Lord Jesus, and already serving within the church, I realise now, that for the most part, my service was at my convenience and in areas of my preferred choice. Now I do believe that comfort is good at times, and that gifting is important when considering where to serve, but when all you do for God and His people, is solely dependent on what brings pleasure to yourself, then something is wrong.
Part of my role, when I started as a Trainee Pastor, involved setting the chairs for a Sunday morning. And in all honesty, this was tough, as I had conjured up many reasons why I shouldn’t be the one doing it. But in those moments, the Holy Spirit reminded me that the Lord Jesus went out of His way to serve me, and not in an easy manner, but by ultimately paying the price for my sin, by His death on the cross. I concluded in that moment that knowing God meant serving Him and His purposes, even at the expense of my own convenience and preferences.
But not only that, I’ve come to see that knowing God must be my utmost priority when it comes to the relationships I forge. The title ‘Pastor', let alone ‘Christian’, brings to mind various expectations. Most of all, the notion that I should have something of worth, from God, to give to His people is likely foremost. And though true, I have been struck with the humbling reality, that if I don’t know the Helper Himself, how can I provide any help for those in need? If I don’t pray, how can I teach others to pray? And if I don’t know God and His promises, how can I start to teach others about such matters?
I am still on a journey, but I thank God for what He has done so far. Through my experiences as a Trainee Pastor, He is calling me away from hypocrisy and into deeper knowledge and fellowship with His Son. And do you know what’s stark about this? This calling isn’t just for me, for Trainee Pastors, or for others involved in church ministry. But for all those who believe and claim the name of Christ.
Therefore, ‘this is what the Lord says: “Let not the wise boast of their wisdom or the strong boast of their strength or the rich boast of their riches, but let the one who boasts boast about this: that they have the understanding to know me, that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,” declares the Lord.’ (Jeremiah 9:23-24)
Moses Nwanji has been a Trainee Pastor at King’s since September 2017 and is based at the Catford Site. He is married to Francesca and they have a baby daughter.
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Steve Tibbert leads King’s Church London, with sites in Catford, Downham and Lee. Over the past fifteen years the church has seen continued growth, both in size and diversity. Steve is also involved in Newfrontiers and regularly coaches other lead elders. His book, Good to Grow, was published in July 2011. He is married to Deb, and they have three sons.